I Will Always Hate Who I Am

I'm a girl my name does not matter, nothing about me matters. I have suffered from depression, anxiety, eating disorder, OCD and a few other things for nearly 8 years now. I've been in and out of hospital for years and have had so so so many suicide attempts. I see psychologists and psychiatrists and i have been on so many different medications that i have lost count. I've been told i have a chemical imbalance in my brain and until the right medication is found i have to find ways to deal with all of the emotional pain i am feeling. I often hear and see things others can't and i get pretty scared. I have no one who understand me. Self harm is and always has been part of my life. I guess I'm just a sad girl dying to escape this world. This is my place where i can express myself freely. I'm here for all of you. I don not promote self harm in any way shape or form.